RE/Search: What was your most horrifying experience?

Genesis P-Orridge: Most horrifying (laughs). Do you mean what's my biggest fear? [long pause] Being betrayed, which leads to the fear of being betrayed again. And the feeling of not being able to trust people when you want to.

R/S: What was your funniest?

GPO: (musingly) Fun-ni-est. I don't know, I don't remember funny things much. They're kind of very transient; they're funny at the time and then you forget them...Well, I do. Don't know...I'm not that bothered about things being funny. It's nice when they are, but it doesn't worry me much. So I guess that's why I don't really remember them so well.

R/S: What was most shocking?

GPO: (long pause) I don't know. I expect the worst of people, so it's very hard to be shocked. Don't know. I'm sometimes surprised at how banal people are, or how stupid people are. But 'shocked' is a very extreme feeling, isn't it? I don't know. It implies so much importance to something, and I don't think I give anything quite that importance, nothing individually. I'm shocked, I suppose, by the fact that I'm even alive. I mean, I find the whole idea of being alive and that you're going to be alive for so long and then you're going to get older and die--that's just really impossible to understand or grasp...very strange. Every day I think about that. How weird it is thinking, I'm going to die, I want to exist...I actually died twice!

R/S: Twice? Came back twice?

GPO: Some people wish I hadn't, I think! I've stopped dying. Next time, I reckon, will be the real one. Third time, I'm lucky...

R/S: What happened?

GPO: While I was dead, you mean? Nothing at all. I remember hearing a doctor say: He's already had it, there's no chance. Or something like that.